Caillie Mutterback
  • Creatures
  • Places
  • Faces
  • Store

The Difference Between Ayacucho and Copley Square

8/13/2014

0 Comments

 
If there isn't a name for the feeling 
that ripples through your body 
when you walk  through libraries,
then there should be.

(And it's not Plantar Fasciitus.)

Because every time I find myself  
walking through these spaces it would 
seem that my words hang suspended
like string of lights, but my hearts beats as
furiously as it did when our timelines accidentally
criss-crossed for the first time.
And the second.
And the third.

And I don't know whether the blame is with the books
or with my breath when I grow light-headed and distanced,
turning the pages of stories I will never read and reminded 
that I can not read it all,
and I can not know it all,
I'm not even smart at all.

And it was outside of a library where 
we sipped beer under the night sky and
you sheepishly admitted that you were 
always the slowest reader in your class
but you could handle Foucault just fine.
And I couldn't think of a reply so the only
thing to do was just sigh when all I really
wanted to do was just kiss you.

And it was in a library where
I would feel most at home - each whisper amplified,
reverberating through the knots in my spine and I could
kill time with characters so twisted and insane that even
the most mundane plot could consume my thoughts
for just a brief moment, and I could forget about the
time spent outside of libraries, sipping beer under the night sky,
where I do everything wrong and you'd do everything right.


Sometimes, I'm transported back to 
the muffled romantics of those old cities and hotel rooms 
where we'd confess thoughts in rolling black-outs by candle,
and compare faults and flaws until we only saw each other 
as bits and pieces of stories haphazardly thrown together by time.
But books seem to get better with time, and I'd rather have
the character of dog-eared pages with your criticisms
scrawled into my margins  than be stuck on the top shelf
and never have been opened at all.
 


0 Comments



Leave a Reply.

    About caillie

    Archives

    November 2019
    December 2018
    November 2018
    May 2018
    January 2018
    December 2017
    November 2017
    September 2017
    August 2017
    July 2017
    June 2017
    May 2017
    April 2017
    March 2017
    February 2017
    January 2017
    December 2016
    November 2016
    October 2016
    September 2016
    July 2016
    June 2016
    April 2016
    March 2016
    February 2016
    January 2016
    December 2015
    November 2015
    October 2015
    September 2015
    August 2015
    July 2015
    June 2015
    May 2015
    April 2015
    March 2015
    February 2015
    January 2015
    December 2014
    November 2014
    October 2014
    September 2014
    August 2014
    July 2014
    June 2014
    May 2014
    April 2014
    March 2014
    February 2014
    January 2014
    December 2013
    November 2013
    October 2013
    September 2013
    August 2013
    July 2013

    RSS Feed

    Tweets by @cailliem
2023 Caillie Mutterback. All Rights Reserved. Calgary, Alberta
  • Creatures
  • Places
  • Faces
  • Store